31/3/08

Its was a special day for me. I passed my car test. It means I got license P. Can drive. Should be happy actually, but I never fell that happy. I sms him, and wait for his reply. But he never reply.
The stars were bright and nice. I stared at the dark dark sky and talked to myself. Today is the last day for me to think of him. My new life will be start on 1st of april. I have to be strong. I must be strong. Its the right time to end up everything.
I keep on telling myself this. And my tears rolling down like hell. I cried in the dark with the cold of night. This might be the good experience. Haha. Stupid ykw. I miss him. So much. But I can't be so stubborn anymore. I should think of my future. My SPM. My pathway after that.
Everything will back to the normal start tomorrow. Its april fool. I have to keep on pretend. Keep on putting smile on my face. Keep on don't think too much. Everything should be ok I hope so.
My hearts feel hot. Don't know why. I closed my eyes. The memories with him come through my mind. His eyes his hair his face his smile his hand his warmth his words his anger his concern his everything. I remembered. I kept this all in my heart and never get these fade.
I admit. I still like him. So much. But I'll let go everything. Should be more happy without him. I promised my friends. And of course myself. Even tough this really suffer, but just let it. I believe in time. It might cure my wound as well.
No more You to Jia. I will stop everything. With him or without him. No more. Wake up at the possible time. Persuade myself not to cry. Don't cry. Don't ever cry.