Basketball

Just came back from basketball court. Today ponteng and went to watch basketball match. I should be happy. But don't know why, the feeling not same at all. The feel not like last time. I just feel wu nai only. Haha. Sounds funny le. My favourite place le. But I never ever feel happy. I know why. Its him. Haha.

The memories with him come back again. Hbykw. Haha. Useless la. The place he promised me something. The place I scolded him. The place we meet. The place he sweat and played basketball. I remember his pose. Kanasai only. Haha. So funny when with him. Really. He likes to make me smile. I like to see his stupid funny pattern. I miss that. Miss the memories alot.

But for just now, I can't even feel happy with that. No more feeling. Looking at all the players playing ball to score marks. I might think of him. Haha. Let it be. Hby only ma. No more no more. I know I know. I got new one ma. But the new one same same only. Both treat me very cruel. But never mind, I used to be like this. Exactly be like this.

After that, I saw the new him. Haha. He dressed up whole set white colour. My favourite le. Haha. My heart feels pain suddenly when I know he is with me. But we still like that. Never say hi. Never smile. Never talk. I stared at him but he still act that cool. Haha. My god. I still like to stare at him. I want to see his smile. But he never ever smile infront of me. Shouldn't feel disappointed of that. He likes to treat me like this. He don't want to influenced my everything. But he don't know that if he never do anything, it might influenced me. He don't know. Still that stupid kia.

He walked out from basketball court but I don't know. I feel depressed. Why suddenly depressed? I also don't know. Weird that I feel depressed. Ykw really sot sot. Why a? No why. Haha. Keep it on. Be like this should be alright. I say bye bye to him when he walked. He never turn his sight to the back for me. My sight stop at his back. Feel like hug him suddenly. Wanna tell him I miss him. But I know, I can't do this. No more. I won't cry.