Night

I on my phone and trying to type him a message. I ask him to take care and jia you.
But I press cancel when its half way sending the message.
Haha. I still like that. Lost the the courage to find him.
Why must I start the conversation first but not him?
I know I can't ask why anymore. It's useless.
Damn. My tears drop again. I keep on wiping it so that no one knows I was crying.
I closed my eyes and his words appeared again and again.
No more promises. I understood.
Just I keep on lying myself. I know also.
Right now it is the time to make everything fade.
No more any memories.
It should end right now.