Last night

I really crazy. Just drive out at night just to meet him for a while. He showed me his new spect. I realized something. My heart feels pain suddenly. He asked me drive carefully but I didn't turn my sight to him. I don't want him to see my tears. Haha. I'm strong infront of him.

I miss him for the whole day. Sat infront my pc and my tears drop again and again. His voice could made my tears. I read her blog and think of them. I shouldn't do like this. He still like her although I trust him that it is NO. I have no more courage to comfort myself. It is so pain when she looked at his eyes. I can't even follow their rhythm.

I don't want to know anything anymore. He said he will wait.... Wait for someone. I don't want to ask him who is the someone. I hate to know the truth. I just want to be someone beside him right now. As a GOOD FRIEND. I willing to do so. 4 more months to go. We have no more chances. But I just want to be myself. Just be myself infront of him.

I will Jia You although it is really without him. I waiting something to happen after our SPM. I don't want to see him suffering anymore. He and her really look match to be couple. I sincerely feel so. Don't cry anymore. I really cannot waste my tears anymore.

I miss his smile. But it is not mine.