Feeling

I thought I can really let it be but I realise that I can't make it. It been a long long time that I used to be like usual I used to act like usual I used to make like usual. ALL FAIL. I hate myself for not giving up like this. Isn't my fault or what I really don't know. I started to lost the confidence and lost the trust. Controlling my mind to get more peaceful. It just like a huge stress blocking my way. I feel suffer of that. I can be cruel but it is hard for me to act cruel. I don't want to give up easily. I want that as what I wanted since a long time ago. I will be more happy and be more smart. Don't try to hurt me without any words. I will not let u win without any action. I will fight u till the end. Because the end for me is only us. You couldn't understand how deep the feeling we had for each other. I will treasure it not just like u. Ykw will win. Fight u down down down down down! LOOSER u!