Failure

I never ever expect that I'll like that. So failure when I stand on the stage infront of everyone. Wtf am I doing that time? My mind black and I stuck on the stage. I don't know what to do. Keep on memorize but I still get nothing. It is so xia shui and hurt when I being like that. My tears drop and I feel angry of myself. Haiz. Ykw really useless. I thought I can do well. But why? No more why to go. I'm not that strong enough actually. I hate my tears and of course myself so much. Just realize that I'm that failure.