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A very long time to go. My tears dropped when I realize that I forgot about his birthday. This is the very first time I know. Ya it means I seriously will not think of him anymore. I am a coward. I am escaping everything.

How to remain the relationship properly? I don't know what to do. I got nothing to do. I feel something weird. It is hurt but I cant do anything. I dislike dislike to be alone when sick. Coughing non stop plus fever is freaking sucks!

My mind is turning and turning. I can't stop everything now. It is just so real and so near. Help me to breath. I learning to do anything by myself. Be more independence, Ykw sure wky. Always and always.


p/s: I need you.

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Sometimes it hurts when things go this way. A not proper way to continue with this feeling. It is sucks. I don't know why I'm blur now. I can't get back the last time passion. I lost myself. Distance makes problems. True right? Again and again I tell myself to think positive. Again and again I tell myself not to give up. Again and again I'm totally lost. I'm a coward. Ya I still like to cry like last time did. No more wky. I'm too tired. How worse if I give up? I cant be so strong to let go things like this. I want fight till the end but it is not enough to clap one side hand. I need the someone to be with me.

Love is not that easy. Not as easy as just saying out I Love You.

P/s: I'm always alone my boy.

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Sitting infront laptop and start typing. I'm alone again without him. Press the call key to call him but I know he's sleeping. He guarantee will not pick up my call. 10 more minutes to 5 am. I'm freaking tire and my eyes gonna to close. Waiting and waiting for the photoshop to responding.


I'm lost now. Come with me my boy.

Spain

Ya the world cup champion belongs to SPAIN..

I love the moment when we were shouting for the goals..

Wait another 4 years =)

World Cup

World cup final is just around the corner. I hope Spain can bring back the Champion =)

Praying hard for her. I hope everything will be alright. Be strong no matter how. I will keep praying for that. With my heart.


P/s: Miracle. We're waiting for that.

Don't go

Again the scene is so so real. Ya I admit I scare. Everything.......



Cannot stop my mind. I'm stuck!


I realize that I really sucks! I really still cannot let it go..


For no reason, I'm s looser..

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Alone again. Doing the sucks design that really fed me up. I hate to be like this and the laptop sucks! Keep on lag and no responding. I tried again and again for it. WTF I feel damn sucks! Nothing else can do except wait. Be patient.

I miss him. Miss him so much right now. I hope he is by my side now and hope he can sleep tight now. Come into my dream and give me a hug. I want it. I feel suffer but cannot give up. Must continue. Jia You.



I miss you.

Again

Again and again I'm finding the way to release the feeling. Sometimes I really don't know what to do. I shouldn't be like this. Cannot cry easily. I lost the temper. I scare. I'm frighten. Can I just disappear and leave this place.


I miss him. Miss my boy.

Pause

The feeling is so real. I know I surely cannot get rid of that. My heart is aching and I feel to cry suddenly. Every different kind of things but might effect the same kind of feeling. I don't know what. It's pain.

What to say more..... I just let it be. I thought I can do it but I realize that I am not. I'm totally just escape form the truth. I'm totally stuck on that point.I don't know. I feeling pain.


When I think of that, my heart will pause. Pause without any reason anymore.

So what

At home now and I skip tomorrow class. I know I am kinda lazy by this way but I really cannot endure anymore. Those stupid irritating feeling just disturb my life. How come like this? I fed up with those stupid assignments. Just make people moody in all the time. Ya I lose on temper again. I can't persuade myself to stay at hostel longer. I just want to come back home without any reason. Just homesick. I miss those foods and those people here.

The routine start again. Final coming very very soon but I am still very lazy. I can't really put my spirit up. I am tired of this kind of situation. However, must Jia You. Be hardworking on that. Study hard. I must and I must and I must. Be the one who never lose no matter how.

I love to win just like how I did last time. Be strong to face it. I should appreciate everything right now. Be smart. My life is full of happiness. Sweet sweet happiness.


P/S: I miss that guy. Who stained in my heart =)

Alone

Siting alone to write something now. It been a long time that I never post anything. Ya I'm busy for my assignments. It sucks! My life being controlled by those stuffs. going Singapore tomorrow at 8.30am but I'm still blogging here.

I feel pain. The sound of heart-break. Just like the glass dropping off. Patient. I will be patient. nothing will affect my good mood. I want to smile. I want to enjoy. Don't ever drop my tears. Being smarter.

Don't agreed with that I will just can't control my mind to think so much. I can't control to lose on my temper. I can't control to forget it. That is so true yet so real. I just can't escape from it.

Learning to be more tolerant and try to solve problem with the positive way. Mature thinking might make me growth up. Keep on persuade myself that's a good one. i must appreciate it.

I miss that guy. Who always hold my hand tight when he was driving.
I miss that guy. Who always laughed at me when I did something stupid.
I miss that guy. Who always hug me tight before he left.
I miss that guy. Who always rescue me from the nightmare.
I miss that guy. Who always will pick up my call at 3am.
I miss that guy. Who always asked me to study hard.
I miss that guy. Who always blamed himself for not taking care me well.
I miss that guy. Who always pampered me whenever I lose on my temper.
I miss that guy. Who always said he loves me so much so much.
I miss that guy. The guy that are near yet so far from me right now.
I miss that guy.

The only one

Again I started the routine. Doing the same thing everyday. It is really sucks but no choice I have to face it. Im thinking so much right now. Everything is just the same. The feeling never changed. I dont know what can I do to let that fade.

I love to stay alone to stare at the stars. Miss the moments. We cant back to the time. I moving on and on to get the only thing of mine.

With the full of LOVE ♥

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Happy birthday!

Let's smile on your day..

Always with you..

♥♥ 2023

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Yeah I'm 19th.. Learning to be smarter and be more mature. I will try my best to do everything in the best. Always smile and appreciate everything I having. 3 more days. I will wait for him <3

Happy Birthday <3


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Time

It's been a long time that we never met up like this. Everything is smooth without any incident. Yea should feel happy of that. Have a smile on my face and be appreciate on that.

I having the mixed feeling that hard to express. It is just too suffer to say out. I don't know why I started to feel guilty. I'm the one who don't know how to appreciate. I trying best to avoid this, but it still happened.

I'm still tired. Counting for it. Or else I'll get lost. Be more strong and confidence. Things will get smooth if you try it with you true heart. I like to be like this. A normal and simple life. With the joy and fun around. Love it =)


P/s: Happy happy.. 2023

My one

I don't know why. I'm really not in mood. The scene was so real. I hesitating. Why will become like this? Or maybe this is just one kind of feeling. Feeling of not contented. Feeling of losing. I started to murmur of that. Yea this is useless I know. Just a quick one I gonna do.

Looking so deep into your eyes. You still never give me a respond. That is just like the sword piercing of my heart. Wtf I felt the pain. Sometimes you still never know how to appreciate. I admit i give it too much.

Calming down my mind. I'm still so failure right. Should be. Haha. I thought things are getting smoother. I thought I'm becoming more smarter. But everything is getting worse. Finding a way to escape. I trying to smile =)


P/s: Just my one that bruised me up. Without mentioning. I lose.

Waiting

Waiting for him. Patiently. Someone waiting cupid to come to her during valentines. I hope her dreams might come true. I'm glad because my cupid is in my heart =)


Love is not about loving someone perfect. It is about loving someone imperfect perfectly.

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Yea, I'm not in mood now. I don't know how to say but that really ruin my mood. wtf. I'm still so easy to being moody by that thing/ omg. I shouldn't like this but just can't control myself.



I want to shout!!!

p/s: I hate it!

Calm

Listening that song. I felt something. A normal feeling. I'm glad that I have him. I will treasure everything. I will be patient. Smile smile. I love it :)



P/s: Supporting you. Jia you LTC.

Talk

Just have a short but meaningful's talk with him. I wonder why I'm so calm or maybe I'm just pretending. But I know my heart felt contented and I already take it a lesson. I will not digest it again and again to spoil the things. Should feel happy for that. He said he felt guilty and this just exactly what I guess. I don't know what to do next. But I will treasure what I having now. Because I met miracle that brings me happiness. I'm happy to have that cute guy in my life.


P/s: Miss that cute guy lots. 2 weeks only can meet. I will be patient. <3