Now

I thinking so much again right now. I wonder why I can't control the tears. Everything really break down my confidence. I tried hard to solve it and tried hard to be smart. But I got nothing at the end. My heart feels something. something that affect me lots. I lost the point to be continue. I lost the point to be the one. I lost the starting point. I'm still the failure. Those words are like the sword. I can't stand of that anymore. I need help from anyone. I need rescue from who ever. But I know, I will still get nothing. Stranglehold the feeling to make myself feel better. I must be tough and strong. I thought I can make it but I fail. I fail to make it perfect. I fail cause I still think so much. i fail cause I lose the opportunity. I fail cause I used to it. I fail to be myself.


P/s: I miss you. I miss you. <3