Life

I waiting for someone to get into my mind.

I love my family. I love my friends. I love my dear. I love all. Time flies and I growth up. I thinking of to skip for the times as I can still keep younger. But too bad I can't escape from the reality. I started to think for my future. What's the real things I need in my life? What's the important things for me? And what's the needs for my heart? Everything occur and make me become weak. I don't know why, or maybe I still not fully prepare yet. I still can't face the real yet. How real is the world? How real is peoples' heart? I wonder.

Hopefully things getting smooth after a long break. I trying to be more independent and be more tolerant. My mind changed and I become more mature. This is a good thing for all. But I'm still the bad girl that always pissed my parents up. Yea I admit I am still a small girl for them. Forever :) Always and always I tried to be patient but I failed to do so at the end. Learning to hold my breath so that things will come more successful. I want to get things success because I'm a big girl right now.

I am glad that I get a good lover. He taught me alot that makes me feel good. He fills up my life and brings me happiness. Of course there are sadness but I get to go through it with my heart <3 He is a sweet lover that brings me warmth. I enjoyed the moment with him.


P/s: That's something. So sincere from my heart. 2023~

Emo

I feel to cry right now. Read some blogs that touch my heart. I get the real feeling of human. Friends and family. I love them much :D But i still remain emo. Recalling the scene. I still can't control myself. I trying my best not to think. I will not destroy it easily. I hope I can make it. I must do it.

Feeling so tired but his smile could bright me up. He just like a bright star that can bring me up. I love him much :D I miss him much right now. Again I need to wait for a week to meet him. I want to hold his hand to let him feel my warmth! Too bad I can't stay here with him for the new year eve. Thinking to skip from genting again. I want to stick with him. I want to give him a big hug so he feels my exist. Thanks him for giving me lots of love. I love it much. And I love the christmas eve's night. With laughter and love from him. A special night for the first anniversary.


P/s: Love has different taste for everyday, the love for today is sweet~ So sweet so sweet. Love you my 2023 <3

Words

Many things running in my mind right now. I could not get the proper speed. Spreading the whole things out. I don't know what I gonna say but I feel something different. It is weird? Maybe. The sight looks scary that make me fail to have it.



I wondering. But I love it.


P/s: one year :)

Tang Yuan

Yea I like tang yuan :) miss him so much right now. Hope he is here with me to hug me tight. I was wondering why the smile so awkward. I'm fine with that. Take things normal and it will be fine. Finally I did it. The first time after a year past. It is a little weird and embarrassed! But I enjoy it with the heart. True heart. Nice to meet everyone. Jia You!


P/s: Praying for you. Don't scare I will always with you <3

Now

I thinking so much again right now. I wonder why I can't control the tears. Everything really break down my confidence. I tried hard to solve it and tried hard to be smart. But I got nothing at the end. My heart feels something. something that affect me lots. I lost the point to be continue. I lost the point to be the one. I lost the starting point. I'm still the failure. Those words are like the sword. I can't stand of that anymore. I need help from anyone. I need rescue from who ever. But I know, I will still get nothing. Stranglehold the feeling to make myself feel better. I must be tough and strong. I thought I can make it but I fail. I fail to make it perfect. I fail cause I still think so much. i fail cause I lose the opportunity. I fail cause I used to it. I fail to be myself.


P/s: I miss you. I miss you. <3

Shopping

I love shopping~ Still waiting.. I will still waiting.. Muacksss <3

Gathering

It feels good after 6 years we never gather. I like the feeling and that moment. We were recalling the primary life and started to tease each other. Wow. Can't wait for another gathering.


Thanks al my dear friends that bright me up! I will treasure everything I'm having now!

3/12

I cant really get what it means but i feel suffer of that. I cant do anything right? Just to wait for it. I scare I will lost my patient. Lend me your hand. I need you.