Mean what?

So many 'I miss you" mean what? I still thinking of a good answer. I miss him so much right now. But he is far far away from me. Learning to appreciate everything. If he meets me right now I swear I will hug him tight tight and won't ever let him go anymore. But, everything is just a dream. I started to do stupid things. Cannot like that anymore. Jia You. Don't cry.

Don't Cry

.... Cannot cry yet I can't stop my tears. I thought I am strong enough you accept that. I should have the preparation for that. I should know what the answer I will get. Yet I still giving hope to myself. Accident is really scary. I.... don't cry.

Can't sleep

Don't know what I'm waiting for. I stil doing something meaningless. Stomach still pain. Makes me can't sleep. I hate to being like this. Yet I don't know what to do. Keep on revise the same things. I .... realised that I am really alone.

So long time never stare at the sky and look at the stars. I miss the moment. So tired to keep the memory. But they already stay deeply in my heart. The scar will stil remain although the woes had been heal. Finally I get the point.

1.27am. Sure everyone sleeping. I .... still wordless. Something appear in my mind now. I think of him. But not miss him. Someone told me he just came back from Taiwan. Don't know why I feel strange on that. He never msg me when he is back. Honestly, my heart feels nothing at all. I just think of him but not our past. Maybe this is the way as we are friend.


P/s: My 2023. I miss him. So much for right now.

09/09/08

Having somtachache right now. So pain. Pain until my tears non-stop dropping. I thought I can endure the pain, yet I can't. I need someone to talk with me but I don't know who to find. Hate my life. So stress so pressure. I am so so so so so tired. Can't afford anymore. But what can I do? I am always alone. Nevermind. I am big girl, so won't cry. I have to stay strong no matter how. Cannot spoil my everything.

Listening Love Story right now. Haha. I miss that moment. Stranglehold everything then I will be fine. For my future. I need to Jia You. I have to Jia You. Don't cry no matter how suffer it goes. This is the purpose of life. Have to face it and solve it. After that will get more and more experience and will growth up become more mature. That's what I want. Don't cry.

P/s: I need someone right now to wipe my tears. But I don't know where he goes.

Life

Can't even concentrate on my studies. Don't know why I feel so tired. My heart or my soul. So hard to put on my smile again. I hate my life. Still that complicated. Bunches of works waiting for me to complete. I want to have a rest. Feel like rejecting myself with the world. Hate to listen to theirs' words. Hate to pretend. Hate to being like this. No more opprtunity to get through everything. Honestly, my heart can't afford anymore. Give me some times. I really want to take a good rest. Cannot cry. I have to stay strong. Must not soft down infront of anyone. ykw sure wky. Don't cry anymore. Ya, I won't cry.


P/s: I didn't compare with anyone, yet I did compared. Ykw no more wky.

....

Sometimes life is like this. We can't even predict anything. Maybe this is the last time for me to get through the deep thought. I have to think of it. But it is so hard to do so. Ykw not that strong enough anymore. My heart cannot afford anymore. So, just let it be. Let everything get fade rightly. Treat everything as normal as usual. No need to think so much of the possible way. Because it is only impossible. Everything will end up easily without anything. Endure that feeling and stranglehold the tears. I know I can do it. ykw sure wky. Some more, pretend is my talent. Kw's style. So I am tough enough to face anything. Cannot waste my tears anymore. Don't cry.


P/s: I miss someone, who deeply stay in my heart.

06/09/08

Don't cry


23+20... I can't forget about this... DON'T CRY!