Heartbroken

This feeling was so sincerely. I felt something wrong on this. Michael Jackson was death last night since I'm in Thailand that time. I only knew it when I passed by a stall with only the Chinese new papers were selling. That feeling was so sad. I can't explain it by words. I don't really know him - he is so famous since I was only child. Anyway, hope the heaven door is open for him to give him get into a better place for more peace. Remembering Michael Jackson.

This feeling keep on running when I realized that my LTC really gonna starts his college life. I had the same feeling as that time he went to PLKN. Dear, I gonna miss u so much so much so much soon. Take care my dear. 2023 <3

Some words

Drop by to say something right now. I feel sad. Don't know how to describe the feel. You are too normal. Don't be like this. I want to see the real one. Isn't that's you? I hope you are okay anyway. Take care my friend. I am here to lend you my ears. Come PD anytime. Just a very near distance from S2. I know you keep on telling me that you're okay. Fine with that. I choose to trust you. Jia You. I have you beside, I will try my best.

P/S: You know who you're that I meant. Take Care. BYEbye.

Sudden Call

I just receive a sudden call form one of my friend. I being told by something. This exactly affect my mood right now. I dunno why life is so truth yet so cruel. I thinking so much right now. Tears being controlled to give myself a reason to get stronger. I don't want things to happen like this but these are out of our control. Accept it can stay stronger for it. Jia You, for those who need. I willing to lend my ears out.

P/s: Life is short. We have to treasure it.

525

525.....
A nice number to be present. Feeling tired right now. Miss potato so much. I dreamt of something last night. How to describe the dream, I'm speechless. For what I thinking so much again? To be honest, I waiting miracle to happen. But that are just fantasy. I tried to get through it as well. That consider a weird dream. Scary.

Feeling so down now. No why, just moody. Stop the thought now. I want to laugh loudly. I want to live happily. Argh!!!!

525.. No point now. Yeah!

P/s: Moody not because of potato, don't perasan my dear.

Forward

Looking forward for something that are precious. I hope that things would get more perfect. Everyday repeating the same things that make me feel to suicide. I keep on persuade myself to go through it as well since this is the propose of life. I growing to look for different things at the different view. Become more mature to get the point even though there is no return at the end. Feel satisfy with life and continue without complain anything. Stranglehold it. Doubtless, I fail to make it. The soul of life flies out and never get back to the normal point. The values are different.

P/s: I don't know what am I writing about. Charm liao. No safe liao.

Suffer

I feel suffer. First time the real things act infront of me. I can't stand for it easily. I thought I'll be fine with that. I thought I don't need anyone. But at last, I fail to make it. Everything. Closing my eyes to get some peace. I just need some to calm myself. Listening Kiss Goodbye right now. The scene would appear again and again. I will try my best to get through it. Will be fine to be myself. But one day, I will run away, to get the peace I wan.

Tonight

It been a very long time I never meet up with my other gang. They were parts of my life. Went to meet with them just now. I'm so excited for this moment. Maybe I growing up and feel to share them my experience. I looking forward for this gathering.

We went into Pizza Hut. The waitress was so polite and invite us. Unfortunately, the waitress said there is no Pizza for today. All of us just 'HAR' for the first reaction. Sounds funny. Pizza Hut don't have pizza then for what we come here. She said no more store for pizza. Then we decided to go KFC.

Quite a nice memory. We talked we laughed we had fun. I feel happy. Sincerely happy and enjoyed. Life still have to continue no matter what's going on. I just hope we can share happiness and sadness together. I will treasure every single friendship I having right now. Take good care for you guys. I miss you guys lots!