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Alone again. Doing the sucks design that really fed me up. I hate to be like this and the laptop sucks! Keep on lag and no responding. I tried again and again for it. WTF I feel damn sucks! Nothing else can do except wait. Be patient.

I miss him. Miss him so much right now. I hope he is by my side now and hope he can sleep tight now. Come into my dream and give me a hug. I want it. I feel suffer but cannot give up. Must continue. Jia You.



I miss you.

Again

Again and again I'm finding the way to release the feeling. Sometimes I really don't know what to do. I shouldn't be like this. Cannot cry easily. I lost the temper. I scare. I'm frighten. Can I just disappear and leave this place.


I miss him. Miss my boy.

Pause

The feeling is so real. I know I surely cannot get rid of that. My heart is aching and I feel to cry suddenly. Every different kind of things but might effect the same kind of feeling. I don't know what. It's pain.

What to say more..... I just let it be. I thought I can do it but I realize that I am not. I'm totally just escape form the truth. I'm totally stuck on that point.I don't know. I feeling pain.


When I think of that, my heart will pause. Pause without any reason anymore.

So what

At home now and I skip tomorrow class. I know I am kinda lazy by this way but I really cannot endure anymore. Those stupid irritating feeling just disturb my life. How come like this? I fed up with those stupid assignments. Just make people moody in all the time. Ya I lose on temper again. I can't persuade myself to stay at hostel longer. I just want to come back home without any reason. Just homesick. I miss those foods and those people here.

The routine start again. Final coming very very soon but I am still very lazy. I can't really put my spirit up. I am tired of this kind of situation. However, must Jia You. Be hardworking on that. Study hard. I must and I must and I must. Be the one who never lose no matter how.

I love to win just like how I did last time. Be strong to face it. I should appreciate everything right now. Be smart. My life is full of happiness. Sweet sweet happiness.


P/S: I miss that guy. Who stained in my heart =)

Alone

Siting alone to write something now. It been a long time that I never post anything. Ya I'm busy for my assignments. It sucks! My life being controlled by those stuffs. going Singapore tomorrow at 8.30am but I'm still blogging here.

I feel pain. The sound of heart-break. Just like the glass dropping off. Patient. I will be patient. nothing will affect my good mood. I want to smile. I want to enjoy. Don't ever drop my tears. Being smarter.

Don't agreed with that I will just can't control my mind to think so much. I can't control to lose on my temper. I can't control to forget it. That is so true yet so real. I just can't escape from it.

Learning to be more tolerant and try to solve problem with the positive way. Mature thinking might make me growth up. Keep on persuade myself that's a good one. i must appreciate it.

I miss that guy. Who always hold my hand tight when he was driving.
I miss that guy. Who always laughed at me when I did something stupid.
I miss that guy. Who always hug me tight before he left.
I miss that guy. Who always rescue me from the nightmare.
I miss that guy. Who always will pick up my call at 3am.
I miss that guy. Who always asked me to study hard.
I miss that guy. Who always blamed himself for not taking care me well.
I miss that guy. Who always pampered me whenever I lose on my temper.
I miss that guy. Who always said he loves me so much so much.
I miss that guy. The guy that are near yet so far from me right now.
I miss that guy.