14/10/08

Sitting on the chair and I knew she was looking at me. My heart pump so fast yet I felt her tears. I don't know what to say but I just hope that she will be fine. I can't be so selfish but I'm so selfish. Sorry to say that I really can't let off my hand. I love him. More than you do. I prefer failure than give up. This means I don't want to give up. Ykw must stay strong. Don't cry anymore. For my 2023, I miss you.

12/10/08

Don't know why I feel so tired. My heart and my soul. I am still a failure that I can't even treat everything as usual. When I get nothing as return, I only realized that everything is just a lie. It is only fake. I can't even stand of that. Trying my best to solve it as well yet I can't do anything. I just want to close my eyes to have a deep rest. Don't cry no matter how suffer it goes. Take my own time then I'll become more mature and sure will feel better. The stars sure bright. I miss that moment. Cannot think of that anymore. Yaya, I won't. Jia You. Don't cry.

P/s: I miss him so much right now. My 2023.

11/10/08

I don't know why things go like this. Sorry that I don't know how to do then I choose to quit. But now, I think properly already, I WON'T EVER PUT MY HAND OFF!! No way for me to do so. I will do what I want and follow my feel. Just be myself. Don't cry. Stop my tears and start everything. Jia You.

P/S: 2023. I will be here for you. Don't cry.

Finally~

Don't know why I feel like crying now. What for we put so much afford on it? It still FAIL! finally CANCEL. Haha, Predictable. Nobody knows that feeling. I don't know what to say. Tomorrow sure everyone ask WHY WHY WHY. I don't know how many times I gonna answer them. Just....... I don't know. My 2023. Faster talk with me. I need you right now!

For you

Happy Birthday. Just now chat with you. Don't know why I feel...... No words can explain my feel. My life is getting better now. So, you are nothing for me. I can treat you as usual already. Hby, Jia You. Ykw also Jia You.

P/S: When can I give you the chocolate cake? I still haven't forget yet. Miss you my friend.

05/10/08

Shouldn't be like this. I looked deep into her eyes. It is full of sadness and loneliness. Don't know why I feel like looking at her tears screaming out. Maybe we are just the same. Standing at the same point and doing the same thing. I.... am still a loser. Maybe this is the things I cannot get forever. I lost my confident. I no more courage to stand up. Who can hold my hand? And do help me this job? I don't want to be like this. Cannot be like this. I feel scare to close my eyes. I feel tired to stand like that. I am so tired. Ykw don't cry. Ya, cannot cry no matter how. I miss someone so much right now. Who far away from my sight. My 2023. Jia You.

Memory

I found out something. This makes my tears. I really get something from that. I can't be so selfish anymore. I can't continue anything anymore. Put my hand off. Let him be and set him free. He is really for her. They both look match to be couple. I sincerely feel so. Cannot think so much anymore. Cannot like that anymore. If not I won't ever get his smile again.

Endure the pain and stranglehold the feel. Don't cry. He won't be mine anymore. I have to wake up. Respect them and their memories. He can't even forget the past. No more anything for me. Just let everything as usual as nothing as normal. Close my eyes and get him out from my life. I don't want to be hurt anymore. Persuading myself not to miss him. Don't cry don't cry don't cry. Jia You.

P/s: For them and their memories. I will leave.